I spent a year cleaning my daughter’s untouched room, calling detectives,"s" and trying not to hate the lake that stole her. My husband grieved beside me so convincingly that I almost missed the way he guarded one old red tackle box like it held more than memories.
My daughter disappeared during her weekly fishing trip with her dad.
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A year later, I found a medical wristband hidden inside his old red tackle box. The date on it was 3 days after Sophie vanished.
That’s when I realized my husband had let me mourn a child he knew was still alive.
And that’s when I called 911.
Everyone used to laugh when Sophie fell in love with fishing.
She was 12, all scraped knees, sharp elbows, and a ponytail that never stayed tight. She could sit beside a lake for hours, watching a bobber like it owed her money.
“That’s a boy’s hobby, Soph,” my sister, Denise, teased one Saturday while Sophie packed snacks.
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Sophie zipped the lunch bag and grinned. “Not if Daddy teaches you. Then it’s bonding.”
Mark tapped the brim of her pink fishing cap. “That’s right, kiddo.”
I smiled because they were sweet together.
But sometimes, it stung.
Fishing was their thing. Every Saturday before sunrise, Mark took Sophie for hot chocolate and cinnamon rolls, then drove to the lake where his father had taught him to fish.
I knew which socks bothered Sophie’s toes. I knew she still liked being tucked in.
But Saturdays belonged to Mark.
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That morning, Sophie tightened her ponytail while Denise and I drank coffee.
“Sure you don’t want to come shopping with us?” I asked.
“No way,” she said. “Dad and I have to catch a monster.”
“Bring me back a pretty fish.”
She took the thermos from me. “I love you, Mom.”
She ran to the garage. Mark followed with his keys and tackle box.
Denise watched me from the table.
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“You know she loves you too, right?”
I stared into my coffee. “I know. I just wish loving me came with secret handshakes and cinnamon rolls.”
