"You smell like the garbage truck," they'd say.
"Careful, he bites."
By middle school, it was routine.
If I walked by, people would pinch their noses in slow motion.
If we did group work, I'd be the last pick, the spare chair.
At home, though, I was a different person.
I learned the layout of every school hallway because I was always looking for places to eat alone.
My favorite spot ended up being behind the vending machines by the old auditorium.
Quiet. Dusty. Safe.
At home, though, I was a different person.
"You're the smartest boy in the world."
"How was school, mi amor?" Mom would ask, peeling off rubber gloves, fingers red and swollen.
I'd kick my shoes off and lean on the counter.
"It was good," I'd say. "We're doing a project. I sat with some friends. Teacher says I'm doing great."
She'd light up.
"Of course. You're the smartest boy in the world."
I couldn't tell her that some days I didn't say 10 words out loud at school.
Education became my escape plan.
That I ate lunch alone.
That when her truck turned down our street while kids were around, I pretended not to see her wave.
She already carried my dad's death, the debt, the double shifts.
I wasn't going to add "My kid is miserable" to her pile.
