My name is Marina Castalano. I am thirty-one years old, and six months ago, I woke up in a hospital bed and heard my sister tell the doctors not to revive me again.

I kept my eyes closed. I slowed my breathing. I pretended I was still unconscious. And thank God I did, because what she said next made me realize the accident that put me in that coma was no accident at all.

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Now, let me take you back to the morning everything changed.

It was a Tuesday in March. I remember because Tuesdays were the days I drove out to Riverside to check on the property. Riverside is a small town about forty minutes north of where I lived, the kind of place where everyone knows the mail carrier’s name, and the diner still serves coffee for $1.50.

The property was mine. Twenty-three acres of pine forest and a farmhouse that had belonged to my grandmother. My sister Vanessa had been asking about it for months. She wanted me to sell it. She said it was just sitting there wasting potential. I said it was my inheritance, and I would do with it what I wanted.

That morning, I was driving the old county road that cuts through the valley. The road was wet from overnight rain, and the fog was thick enough that I had my headlights on, even though it was nine in the morning. I remember the radio was playing an old song, something my grandmother used to hum while she gardened.

I remember thinking I should call Vanessa when I got home, try to smooth things over from our last conversation.

I remember seeing the deer. It stepped out from the tree line about thirty feet ahead. I hit the brakes. The car didn’t slow the way it should have. It kept sliding, pulling to the right like something was pushing it. I yanked the wheel. The deer bolted. And the last thing I saw before the car left the road was the guardrail coming up fast, twisted metal against a gray sky.

Then nothing.

When I woke up, it wasn’t the way they show it in movies. There was no bright light, no slow flutter of eyelids, no orchestra swell. I woke up all at once, the way you wake up when you’ve overslept and your brain is screaming that something is wrong.

The first thing I felt was pain. Not sharp pain, but a deep ache that seemed to come from everywhere at once, like my whole body had been wrung out and hung up to dry.

The second thing I felt was the breathing tube down my throat.

The third thing I heard was my sister’s voice.

She was standing somewhere to my left. I couldn’t see her yet because my eyes hadn’t adjusted, and because something about the way I was lying made it hard to turn my head, but I knew her voice the way you know the sound of your own heartbeat.

Vanessa has this particular tone she uses when she’s trying to sound reasonable, like she’s the only adult in a room full of children. She was using it now.

“Doctor, I appreciate everything you’ve done, but I think we need to be realistic here. My sister’s been in a coma for eleven days. The neurologist said there was significant brain trauma. At what point do we accept that she’s not coming back?”

I wanted to scream. I wanted to rip the tube out of my throat and sit up and tell her I was right here. I was awake. I was fine.

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