“You’re home early,” Julian said, his voice a low rasp that tore through the remaining silence.
Clara didn’t answer. She looked at the shoes she still held in her hand—the worn, low-heeled shoes that didn’t belong to her. She let them drop. The thud was the sound of a door closing forever.
In that clinical, white-washed room, the light didn’t feel like a new morning. It felt like a spotlight on a tragedy that had been written long before she walked through the door. Clara turned around, not toward the bed, but toward the hallway, leaving the meat and the vegetables to rot on the table. Some things, she realized, could never be made warm again.
Part 3
The hallway felt longer than it had minutes ago, a cold, white throat swallowing her whole. Clara didn’t look back. She couldn’t. The image of Julian’s hand on Leo’s shoulder was burned into her retina like the afterimage of a flashbulb—blinding, distorted, and impossible to erase.
She reached the kitchen. The bags of groceries sat there, pathetic and mundane. The meat was sweating through the butcher paper; the vegetables were already beginning to wilt in the stagnant heat of the apartment. She stared at them, her mind spinning a thread of logic that refused to hold.
Clara walked to the counter and picked up the pair of shoes she had dropped. She looked at them again. They were scuffed at the toe. Someone had walked miles in these. If they weren’t hers, and if Julian and Leo were… that… then who was the woman whose ghost occupied the entryway?
“Clara.”
The voice came from the bedroom doorway. It was Julian. He had thrown on a robe, the belt tied loosely, his hair a mess of sleep and secrets. He didn’t look like a villain. He looked like a man who had been holding his breath for four months and had finally run out of air.
“Who do those belong to?” Clara asked, her voice dangerously steady. She held up the shoes.
Julian leaned against the doorframe, his face shadowed. “They belonged to your sister, Clara. Before she passed. I… I found them in the storage unit while you were away. I brought them here because I missed the sound of someone else walking in this house. I missed the idea of a family that worked.”
Clara felt the air leave her lungs. A lie. Another layer. Her sister had been gone for five years.
“And Leo?” she whispered. “Why was he in there? Why was he looking at you like that?”
Julian took a step forward, but Clara retreated, the kitchen counter pressing into her spine.
“Leo hasn’t been sleeping,” Julian said, his voice trembling now. “Since you left, the nightmares started again. The ones about the accident. He couldn’t stay in his room. He’d come in at 3 a.m., shaking, terrified. I let him stay. It was the only way he felt safe.”
He paused, searching her face for a flicker of belief.
“We weren’t hiding a betrayal of the heart, Clara. We were hiding the fact that we are broken without you. We didn’t know how to tell you that the ‘perfect’ house you wanted was falling apart the second you shut the door.”
Clara looked past him. Leo was standing in the shadows of the hallway now, wrapped in a blanket, his eyes red and hollow. He looked less like a son and more like a survivor.
