This call scared me almost as much as what happened.
Because now not everything depended on position.
Not from the cameras.
Not from the police.
And it will depend on who he chooses when there is no more room for excuses.
Artyom arrived in forty minutes.
I was staring at the door the whole time.
On the white handle.
Over the shadow behind the frosted glass.
Over the wet footprints of someone's boots in the hallway.
When he came in, he had the face of a man who still hoped there had been a misunderstanding.
Then he saw my bruise.
I saw Leo in my arms.
I saw a policeman at the window.
And then he aged.
- With...
He took a step towards me.
But I moved.
Just a little bit.
That was enough.
He understood.
"Your mother tried to take our son," I said. "Your sister was waiting in the car."
He remained silent for a long time.
At that moment, a person decides what they will be like in the future.
Son.
Husband.
Father.
Or a coward who chooses the role that causes him the least pain.
"Mom said you weren't yourself after the operation," he finally said.
Not because he didn't hear me.
Because I needed the last bridge.
The last chance to not see it all.
I looked at him in a way I never had before.
Without asking.
Without hope of being loved.
— The cameras recorded everything, Artyom.
He sat down in a chair leaning against the wall.
That same cheap plastic chair for visitors.
Curved.
Extra.
For the first time in his life, he could not be saved by kind words.
Through the glass of the hallway I saw Galina Petrovna.
She wasn't shouting anymore.
He sat on a hard bench under a yellow lamp.
The fur coat lay nearby, as if its power had faded along with the fur.
Veronica was brought in later.
She kept trying to talk about her despair.
About my treatment.
That she also wanted to be a mother.
And on any other day, perhaps I would have felt sorry for myself.
But not the one where my children smelled of milk and antiseptic.
I'm not referring to the one where my cheek was burning from the blow.
I'm not referring to that time when unknown hands were already holding my son at the door.
The researcher asked me many questions.
I answered calmly.